Out of guilt or out of my scary rants.

Ive been looking for my tweezers for the last 4 days and even fixed my clothes refolded all of em and reorganized my makeup and kits but cant seem to find it then I went home to Laguna and slept there last night and went back to this crappy boarding house and somebody returned it to my makeup bag!

I swore it was not there because when I was looking for it I am sure I did not miss that crappy bag and even transferred some of its content in my shoe box full of crap.

Darn it I hate dorms but I have no choice.

(Its not the boarding house rish, its the people you are boarding with)

I wanna go back to school.

I am scared to build wrong thoughts.

But why the fcuk I end up doubting?

Its all the same, believing and not believing.

Believe and weep when you know everything you used to know was wrong.

Doubt, then destroy everything then later on regret.

RISHIE PLEASE GAIN FAITH JUST THIS INSTANCE.

DOUBTING WILL NOT DO YOU ANY GOOD.

Better regret on things you've believed in rather than those you never did.

I am scared to be left alone.

But I never doubted someone this bad all my life.